Another random dose of the Muslim Texan..

mood:  thrilled ❤ ❤ ❤
craving: chocolate  ice-cream and a walk on the river walk

The weekend is near and it can't come any faster. My daughter will spend Memorial Day weekend with her father so  it's just Azooz and I. We do have a busy weekend, I'm excited.  One of my close friends is leaving back to Saudi Arabia in nine more days. So, this weekend will be a must to spend some time with her and other sisters. There's a henna party on Friday, so Azooz and I will be attending.  On Saturday one of my friends is coming down to Texas to visit me.  ❤ Saturday through  Monday will be busy. I have my weekend planned out. Inshallah (God's willing) we will have a nice Memorial Day weekend. I'll miss my daughter; when she's gone it's not the same.

In other news: my dad is doing good. I'm cooking healthy food for all of us and it's really paying off. He has lost a lot of weight and feels really good. I don't buy processed food anymore and bake everything. Healthy feels good. ♡
I'm listening to some, 'Smooth Jazz' now and relaxing with one of my closest friends. She came for dinner and now she's reading a book and I'm finishing off this entry. It's nice to have the kind of friend you don't have to entertain. Y'all are like sisters and if your quiet for 2 hours you don't feel akward. That's the type of friends I have. 

The house smells like I baked a rich vanilla cake. Thanks Bath & Body works. Their oils are amazing. Azooz is playing on the trampoline outside with his sister. It's getting really hot here in Texas. I feel like drinking an Iced Espresso. That sounds good. ✿

Mosha- our cat- is keeping us entertained. She's interested in trying to get at our beta fish, Mo. Kinda keeping a eye on her so Mo isn't her dinner.

 


Azooz came in the house the other day and said, 'Mama, this is for you." Aww, he's so precious. He handed me a leaf. Kids sure do grow up fast and he's doing just that. I wish I could hold him in my arms forever. I think that's every mom's dream. Amber got me some beautiful pink roses the other day. When she gave them to me, I saw the look in her eyes. She just hugged me and told me, she loves me and I'm the best mother ever.   My kids are my life and my life revolves around them. I wouldn't have it any other way. I couldn't imagine living a day without the two of them.

 Mashallah, my little boy. Abdul Aziz عبد العزيز‎

Hmm, what else. Well, as y'all can see, my life is going on still. Just taking life as it comes. Believe it or not, it's getting so much better than I ever thought. I'm finally adjusting to my America.   Well, that's about it. I've run out of things to say.  Have a nice Memorial Day weekend everyone. And to my friends in the Middle east: have a great rest of the weekend, since y'alls weekend started today. 

final whisper: Yeah, I'm smiling ♥. But, you're not the reason anymore. 

Sunday, dear Sunday...

mood: relaxed
craving: somewhere, where it's snowing now...

salam alykom to my dear Muslim brothers and sisters and a BIG hola to all my brothers and sisters in humanity. This weekend was a nice relaxing weekend with my kids and one of my best friends. It's almost coming to a end. We just lounged around today. I read a some Quran. Very relaxing. So, tell me what y'all have done this weekend. Next weekend is gonna be a long one, Memorial Day and all. Other than that, just busy. A lot to do here in Texas. :) Have a great week, everyone! and don't forget to smile. :)

So, on to my entry. Very short and very random. I hope it makes y'all smile.

Give me odorous at sunrise a garden of beautiful flowers where I can walk undisturbed.  

~Walt Whitman

''A perfume is like a piece of clothing, a message, a way of 

presenting oneself ... a costume ... that differs according to

the woman who wears it''.

I think we dream so we don't have to be away from one another. If we're in each other's dreams, we'll always be together.
~ Hobbes

"Happiness is the secret to all beauty. There is no beauty 

without happiness." 

— Christian Dior

Back in America, so coffee it is ...

~Texan, after UAE

The World is a book, and those who do not travel read only a page.
Saint Augustine

This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.
-- Author Unknown

You must love yourself before you love another. By accepting yourself and fully being what you are, your simple presence can make others happy.
-- Author Unknown

"Kindness is like snow - it beautifies everything it covers"

final whisper: In dreams and in love there are no impossibilities.

It feels so right...

mood: Satisfied

craving: somewhere over the rainbow

salam alykom and hola to all my followers out there. The kids and I had a very nice weekend and I owe it all to one of my childhood best friends. I hope everyone had a great weekend. :)

I’ve learned that things change, people change, but that doesn’t mean you can forget about the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you need to move on, and treasure the memories. Letting go, doesn’t mean giving up. It  means that you’re finally accepting that some things weren’t meant to be..so just let it go...

final whisper: Love ya Renee foreva & eva.. xoxoxoxoxox's

All good things come to those who wait...

mood: content

craving: a relaxing weekend

For truly with hardship comes ease; truly with hardship comes ease.

( Quran; Surat al-Inshirah: 5-6)

.........and finally I feel alive. ♥

 

final whisper: patience is a virtue...Patience is the companion of wisdom..Patience and fortitude conquer all things..

My eyes are opening little by little.

mood: reflective

craving: a PARTY!

salam alykom and hola my dolls. :)  I hope that everyone is having a productive week and if you're not, be positive and i promise when you start to think positive, you're gonna feel so much better. on to my entry. :) :) :)  

Good night to all my friends over seas and to all my friends/family and followers here in the states, have a great day. Keep smiling, happy looks good on you.

When you step outside a society  for almost ten years and try to make it familiar again, it's hard. The States have changed in the last ten years and  people who were once very close to you, have too. Nothing ever stays the same. To soften the blow and to keep the USA close to my heart, I've had to do a lot of soul searching in these last ten months. The first  time we went out after our second to the last payer of the night the streets here in Texas were bare and empty. That to me was a sense of loss. I wanted to shop until midnight in the crowded markets and bargain with the vendors, drop by my in law's home at an ungodly hour that people in the states would gasp at. I couldn't do that here; people are sleeping by 10:30 pm and as I always called the Arabs vampires (in a loving affectionate way) they love to stay up late at night , chat and drink their chai. I got accustomed to that life.. I fell in love with it. But, alas it's done and over with and that will never be my life again.

My life is here in Texas and that's where I'll stay. I've made peace. So, from the day I made peace with being here in the states, I've felt a lot better. I hope it keeps getting better. Someday, I'll go back to my son's birth place, his country. When that day will come? God only knows. But, for now: Please welcome me back, Texas. Why didn't I miss you when I was abroad? I'm finally opening my mind, heart and eyes. I think that's what I had to do from the beginning, but when your heart has been torn apart, and stepped on it's kinda hard to think straight. It's almost been a year since I've been away from UAE, a hard year. A hard year indeed. But, it didn't kill me, therefore it's made me a stronger person. And it's really humbled me and made me a better person.

I wanted to thank a very special person in my life. She's been there from the beginning of my transition here in the states. If it wasn't for her, I don't know where I would be. She's loving and caring and just that special person you can go and pour all your feelings out to and she will never judge you. Isn't it great to have a friend like that? I'm truly blessed. God put her in my life for a reason and that reason was to get me back on track. I'm there and it feels great. Blanca, thank you. You will truly never know how grateful to Allah I am for Him bringing you in my life. May God always give you good in this life and the hear after ameen *kisses and hugs*

final whisper: always look beyond what you see

Missed y'all... :) :) :)... Random post about different things.

mood: happy

craving: Colorado

First off, Salam Alykom to my new friends and followers!! I adore you already.  Make yourself at home. Comment and say hi to let me know you've been here! I promise I don't bite.. :) I might just bore y'all with little things in my life.  But, keep a open mind and know that my intentions are good. I want to make y'all laugh and think about life. Now, hurry up and get your favorite drink and snack and read a long. Come follow me through my happy days and my hardships. God's willing, more happy days than hardships.


Well, it's been a while since I've made my last entry. I keep getting emails from readers asking me when I'm going to make the next entry. Well, I've been very busy and hardly on the net these days. Life just makes me busy. Being a single parent isn't easy and I have to give more attention to my kids.. :) Alhamdulilah (thank you God). Today is Mother's day, as Muslims we don't celebrate this day, because every day is Mother's day for us.

Narrated Abu Huraira:

A man came to Allah’s Apostle and said, “O Allah’s Apostle! Who is more entitled to be treated with the best companionship by me?” The Prophet (pbuh) said, “Your mother.” The man said. “Who is next?” The Prophet said, “Your mother.” The man further said, “Who is next?” The Prophet said, “Your mother.” The man asked for the fourth time, “Who is next?” The Prophet said, “Your father. ”
(Bukhari, Volume 8, Book 73, Number 2)

 So, everyday we celebrate Mother's day, not just one day out of the year. Mothers are important everyday. But, to all my non-muslim readers, Happy Mom's day to y'all and happy mom's day to your moms and grandmoms. :) So, that's the end to this subject. Let's talk about something else.. I feel like being random today. :) :) :)

I'm sure the way I feel these past months is the fact that I'm on my own with my two kids. Or maybe now im finding out what it's really like to be independent and not depend on anyone but myself. If you've heard that song Landslide by Stevie Nicks, it tells my story perfectly. 

Well I’ve been afraid of changing ‘cause I
Built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older, I’m getting older to

I've come to find out who  my 'true' friends are. I found that out fast. My two best friends are still in touch with me and have given me every excuse is to why I'm busy with my life here in Texas. I do have new friends here and have a lot of support from them. But, that doesn't mean I don't think of and miss my besties there in UAE.  It feels good to know that people don't turn the other cheek when you need them.

I'm also so thank full that God put Om Abdullah and Twizzle in my life. They have been there for me. Maybe we don't talk as much as we used to when I lived there in UAE, but none the less, they are there for me to talk to me and support me. All I have to do is pick the phone up and call and they will never question me for not keeping in touch as often. This is what a friendship consists of. Making excuses for each other and trying to put yourself in their shoes. I miss them and I know they miss me.

I just need to relax, and breathe. I just need to always think about that verse in our holy Quran.

For truly with hardship comes ease; truly with hardship comes ease. (Surat al-

Inshirah: 5-6)

It's coming and I can feel it. I always say, alhamdullah (thank you God) for everything you have put in my life. There's a reason why I'm here now, and not in UAE.  So, let me just relax and always have faith in God. There's always a light at the end of the tunnel. Optimism always helps; I'm actually happy with my life here. I'm very humbled and very thankful to Allah. Wow, this post is all over the place. Just writing down my feelings and listening to My Best Friend's Wedding on the TV in the back ground.. LOL

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little pray for you
While combing my hair now,
And wondering what dress to wear now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, and ever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, and ever, we never will part
Oh, how I love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me.

That's what they're singing now. It goes perfect with my mood.

Hmmm what to talk about now... I've been typing this entry for hours (got busy with kids) and coming back and forth putting my 2 cents here and there. Taking phone calls from close friends and laughing with my kids, makes a perfect day. I'm sure later on one of my closest friends will come on by, as she does almost every day. I always await our conversations. It makes my days and nights a lot better.

So, here's to friendship and mothers. May God always bring good in my life and let me smile everyday and laugh everyday and most of all, think of Allah every day ameen

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final whisper: even if you think I don't care for you, I still do and always will. I miss those nights singing with you on the phone and just acting silly. I miss you and love you still.