17 yrs went so fast...

mood: MELODRAMATIC

craving: to hold my little girl forever...

Salam Alykom and Alooo (Arabic accents) to all my followers and readers. I hope everyone had a productive day today. For those of you in Europe and the middle east, have a GREAT day. On to my entry. <3 In a couple of hours my baby girl will be seventeen years old. : / Wow, how time flies. Today I was driving her to the dentist, she showed me this song by Taylor Swift and I almost started bawling my eyes out. I grabbed her little hand and we looked at each other, her eyes glistened as she said, I love you mom. Those words always melt my heart.

To the world, you may be one person. But to me, you are the world.

I can remember when I was seventeen years old, I already started my life and was alll grown up. Times have changed. My baby is still at home and I don't want her to leave. I joke with her and tell her, her brother and I will follow her to the university. We are so close and I never want that bond to break. Inshallah, never. So, here's a big, big seventeen birthday prayer for you, baby girl.

May Allah bestow many blessings upon you, my daughter and give you only good in this life and bless you with happiness, love and wealth and health, may he always protect you from harm and accept all your prayers ameen

Abu Azooz, if you are reading, you were a part of raising Amber. She's who she is because you loved her and cared and taught her how to love and respect others. She's not the typical, American girl, she's different. I thank you for that.  As she said in her last email to you, and i will quote it.





Dear Abouy,

Thank you, though: for being kind to us, for giving us all we wanted and more, for providing for our needs, for making us laugh and smile, for teaching me how to be who I am. I thank you for teaching me how to respect myself and others. I thank you for helping me grow into someone who can't be compared to kids my age here in the US.


I loved you even though I didn't show it.
I call you by your name when you pop up in conversation. But you will always be my Abouy. To bad you changed so much, to the worse. I never thought you would do what you did to my mom. This proves that life doesn't stay the same, it changes. But, you couldn't expect us to stay with you. My little brother is better off with my mom and I. I would never want him to be raised by you. You are a different person. Not the abouy I once knew. :'( You broke not only mom's heart, but mine too.
:'(

final whisper: Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Amber, happy birthday to you. I love YOU... You will always be my baby..