Friday, February 12, 2010

Never going to lose touch with you

mood:
craving: alone time

After the sad news, I just wanna drive to a far away place and let my thoughts go. Place a blanket on the sand or maybe just lay in the sand and look up at the starry night and think. I'm starting to process the news and it has really hit me hard. I finally talked to Gloria; she was so shocked to hear my voice and she cried as she told me, "I never forgot you or your mom."
  I couldn't hold my tears back, if I would of even tried (which I did) I felt like my throat would explode. So, I cried quietly and just wanted to hold her in my arms and tell her, "Everything is going to be okay." but it's kinda hard to do when you live so far  away.

 I plan to see her this year, God's willing. We cried - laughed  and reminisced about old times. We talked about Christina and she told me what is going on. I couldn't believe half of it, I had to hold back more tears.

She thanked me for calling and she promised she would update me about the situation. I will (God's willing) never loose touch with her.

After talking to her for over an hour, I sat on my bed and just stared at the ground. I felt so numb.

This life is full of whirlwinds: if you let it tear you down, it's going to destroy you. And at the end of the day, the only thing that will keep you sane is prayer and Allah (God) ..


"Be sure We shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods, lives, and the fruits of your toil. But give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere. Those who say, when afflicted with calamity, 'To Allah we belong, and to Him is our return.' They are those on whom descend blessings from their Lord, and mercy. They are the ones who receive guidance." (Quran - 2:155-157)



Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
Qur'an 94:5-6

Final Whisper: have faith in God - hold on to your prayers

5 comments:

OmAbdullah said...

May Allah help her!

I can only imagine how sad this is for, first for her.. as the mother and then for everyone like you who is close with them. Life is full of ups and downs, its a crazy life! And your right, the one and only thing we have is having faith is Allah (God)
May Allah keep us all safe and healthy. Ameen!

aynzan said...

When we trust Allah he'll never let us down..I'm new to your page and already loving it..

Texan after UAE said...

Om A - You and I talked about this. I didn't get to tell you everything, but, we'll talk later. I'm sure it's devastating. :(

aynzan - welcome to my blog. Your right, never give up, he will never let his slaves down. Thanks dear sis. Come again. <3

Twizzle said...

as-salaam aleikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh,

Alhamdulillah you made the phone call and was able to be a comfort to her... a shoulder to cry on, someone to reminisce with, and just so she knows she is in your thoughts.

Inshallah you will get to see her this summer.

Subhanallah how life can have so many huge changes and how much we take our own bodies for granted.

Ameen to the dua'as.

Unknown said...

Very very sad...I can't imagine how difficult it must be for the mother to see her daughter suffering like that. My heart goes out to them. May Allah give them strength.

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